Losing your way // Is it that simple?

I haven't been to yoga in over two weeks.  In fact, since TWO Monday's ago.  Take that dose of grossness.  No wonder why I haven't blogged in so long.  But, alas my fans (okay, just a couple...maybe just one) have been asking why I haven't blogged!

So, what have I learned from not practicing?  How centered it keeps me.  How my memory is much better (yeah, I went to Cancun for a long weekend and totally forgot my passport!).  How my body feels better.  How I feel less bloated.  How I feel less stress/anxiety.  How I feel more motivated.

So now that I feel stiff and gross - I cannot wait to get back on the mat.  When you have consistencies in your life change can be difficult.  Having a consistent practice pattern is what makes the benefits long-term.  I had my first panic attack in quite some time today.  I can only imagine my lack of patience, practice, and work/life issues are the cause.  But, I KNOW if I had been practicing it would have been a different type of attack.

Sometimes it is not just your practice.  It can be your entire life.  You can feel lost and like you cannot find your way. You don't feel centered.

Last night my old college roommate Lauren and I were taking a nice walk down memory lane after a delicious dinner at The Melting Pot.  We were thinking about all the good times, the hard times, and how crazy it was that we have known each other for 9 years!  It seems like just yesterday we were bubbly 18-year olds meeting for the first time - bonded by a Facebook 'Thompson Hall' search and Stacie Orrico lyrics in our profiles.  We talked about how we got to where we are today and the decisions we have made. We talked about "what if" scenarios.  We talked about ex loves.  We talked about friends - old and new.  But the entire theme of the conversation was ultimately not feeling complete.  Not yet feeling whole.  Feeling like the dreams we had at 18 were not yet there.  But honestly in life do we ever find full contentment?  Do we ever "find our way"?  Maybe life isn't just that simple.  Just like your yoga practice does not end/is not completed when you leave your mat - life doesn't end/isn't complete when you fulfill dreams.  There is always more work.  There are always more dreams.  And, there are always amazing friends to enjoy both the yoga and life with you :)