Rolling with the punches...and a new project!

A recently learned lesson of mine is that the punches will keep coming in.  Even when you think they will stop... they will actually just keep coming.  My dad once told me life is one disappointment after the other and it is how you REACT and HANDLE those disappointments that will define you and who you are.  It will teach you your true character, strength, and determination.  One thing I am learning in addition to that is who I AM and MY character does not need to be defined by the actions and choices of other people.  Something I need to remind myself of daily.  Why someone is a certain way or acts a certain way in all reality has nothing to do with me.

I am going to go with some real talk right now.  I am kind of lost on my next steps in life.  I am on the horizon of my 28th birthday in a week and I totally thought I would have my shit together by now.  But, I don't.  In fact, I am officially at another point in my life where I need to redefine myself, who I am, what I want, and most importantly what I NEED.  The scariest part is I have NO IDEA.  I guess you could say I know what I need, but there's a whole lot of fluff going around in my head.  There are a lot of what the hells, are you kidding me, disappointments, unexpected shocks, expected shocks, and total mass confusion.  How and where do you begin to make sense of where you are in life and where you want to be?  How do you being to comprehend, for example, pure evil?  Do we all at some point experience pure evil and have to learn to understand it?  Do we ever actually learn to understand it?  Do we all at some point experience something life changing; something that changes you and your character and who you always were?

So while I am on this journey of re-self discovery or re-finding myself (whatever we want to call it), I am not going to just forge ahead and forget my past.  I, in fact, have something coming down the pipeline that is going to hopefully be not just therapeutic but huge for me.  While I might not change the world, I want to make my small dent.  I want to make a difference.  And, what I have planned might.  Even if it is just a few people, that is enough for me.  More details to come in the next few months as I have to keep this project under wraps as I figure out how to do it and certain legalities.  But it's something I am incredibly excited for as long as everything goes as planned!